—A Shaman’s Tale of Release, Realignment, and True Abundance
Let me tell you a story.
Years ago, I was broke. Not the kind of broke where you skip sushi night and tighten your belt for a week. I mean spiritually broke. Financially tangled. Emotionally overdrawn.
Like many seekers, I had made money the villain of my spiritual journey. I believed money was dirty, corrupt, and surely incompatible with the kind of transcendent, soul-illuminating life I longed to live.
I kept saying things like “Money doesn’t matter,” while secretly obsessing over how to pay rent. I pretended I was above materialism, but I also couldn’t say no to that latest book on shamanism or that healing course everyone swore by.
My energy was a mess—swinging between scarcity and shame, rebellion and greed. And money? Well, it ran from me like I had body odor and bad karma.
Until one day, during an ayahuasca ceremony in the rainforest, I asked a question I hadn’t dared voice before:
“Why the hell does money make me feel so powerless?”
What I received wasn’t a lecture. It was a vision. Vivid, strange, and unforgettable.
A Path Paved in Gold… and Illusion
In my vision, I saw a long golden path stretching endlessly ahead. On it walked millions of people—eyes forward, jaws clenched, chasing coins like starving dogs. Some had suitcases of cash but looked hollow and lost. Others had nothing and sat on the side of the path, weeping with envy.
Then I noticed something strange: a side trail that shimmered differently. It was soft and wild, overgrown and alive. People laughed on that path. Danced. Played. Their clothes were messy, their wallets not always full, but their hearts? Beating with something real.
I heard a voice—gentle but fierce:
“Money is not the goal. It’s the vehicle. Stop trying to marry the taxi. Ask where you’re really trying to go.”
Boom. That was it.
The Spiritual Shift: From Obsession to Orientation
That single principle—money is the vehicle, not the destination—shattered my inner poverty.
It flipped my reality on its head.
I stopped thinking in terms of numbers and started thinking in terms of what I actually wanted. I asked:
- Why do I want this money?
- What experience am I trying to buy?
- Is it freedom? Peace? Adventure? Recognition? Security?
Every time I drilled down, I found that what I truly craved wasn’t money—it was the feeling I thought money could give me.
And most of those feelings were available right now. For free.
The real currency was clarity.
The Irony of Flow: Letting Go Unlocks the Vault
Here’s the mind-bending part:
Once I stopped chasing money like it was the end-all-be-all and began honoring what I actually wanted underneath it…
Money came.
Not in truckloads. Not via winning lottery tickets. But it began to flow. A little at first. Then more.
And it came not just through clients or book sales or workshops. It came through gifts. Unexpected refunds. Opportunities that fell from the sky. Relationships that carried value beyond numbers.
Why? Because I had removed the kink in the hose.
That kink was called attachment.
Attachment to outcome. Attachment to lack. Attachment to an identity that said, “I’m spiritual, so I must suffer.” Bullsht.*
I had to kill my inner starving monk and welcome my inner creator instead.
Money as a Lover, Not a Master
From that point forward, I began relating to money the way I relate to fire: with respect. With presence. Without neediness or contempt.
I stopped treating money like a god—or a demon—and began treating it like a friend. A powerful, wild, neutral friend that shows up more consistently when you’re not trying to chain it up or pretend you don’t care whether it visits.
I no longer pray for money. I listen to what it’s trying to teach me.
Because money isn’t evil. It’s not holy either. It’s a mirror. A magnifier. It expands whatever energy you put into it. If you’re full of fear, money gives you more fear. If you’re full of peace and joy, money helps you spread that sh*t like wildfire.
How to Build a Harmonious Relationship with Money
You don’t need to sell your soul or light incense on a pile of bills to build peace with money. Here’s what worked for me—and for many I’ve guided:
1. Ask what money represents for you.
Freedom? Status? Safety? Love? Identify the core desire beneath the dollar signs.
2. Practice financial honesty.
Look at your bank account without shame. Don’t judge. Just observe. That’s how any healing begins.
3. Give from overflow, not obligation.
Tithing, donations, or helping a friend only works when you’re not secretly resentful or drained. Give what feels joyful, not performative.
4. Make money with meaning.
Ask yourself: Is what I do aligned with who I am? When your actions serve your soul, money sticks around longer.
5. Let money surprise you.
Don’t micromanage the “how.” Money is sneaky. It likes to arrive from unexpected angles. Stay open.
The Bottom Line
You don’t need to conquer money. You don’t need to escape it either. You need to liberate it from your illusions.
Money is a servant, not a savior. A brush, not the masterpiece. A road, not the destination.
So let it move. Let it flow. Let it dance through your life without clinging or controlling.
The more you chill, the more it flows.
It’s not magic.
It’s alignment.
And alignment—real, heart-rooted, soul-level alignment—is the most abundant currency of all.
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